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[ October 23rd, 2008 | 8:39am ] |
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i'm not gonna write in this anymore.
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[ August 1st, 2008 | 11:58pm ] |
i know that other people say that i'm making wrong choices
but i feel like they are right
and i'm the happiest i've ever been
but i seem to say that often
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[ June 28th, 2008 | 3:16pm ] |
hello live journal!
i am amazing.
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[ January 4th, 2008 | 4:56pm ] |
i want life in every word
to the extent that it's absurd
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[ November 23rd, 2007 | 2:38pm ] |
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i'm content
i think it's just because i'm confused
but i'm enjoying the ride
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[ September 30th, 2007 | 9:02pm ] |
enlightenment
this feeling is simply amazing
it's new
my energy feels new
i feel new
and happy
i love this.
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[ September 18th, 2007 | 7:11pm ] |
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i hate this fucking feeling
it comes with everything
even things i shouldn't be feeling it for
shitttt.
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[ August 28th, 2007 | 4:34pm ] |
whelp,
this summer is almost over
i made new friends
and lost a few friends
i made the typical mistakes
and helped other people with theirs
this summer is one of the most changing summers i've ever had
big changesss
i'm fantastic though
:] <3
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| oh how sweet. |
[ August 18th, 2007 | 8:47pm ] |
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Sparks- Coldplay |
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You know how when you trip and fall, you can see yourself falling and you know that you are falling but you can’t do anything to stop it or fall in a right way because you don’t have enough time to make a decision? That’s kind of how I feel about my life. Actually, that is exactly how I feel about my life. I'm falling and I know I am but I can’t stop it. No matter what I do, I usually fall in the wrong way and end up with ouchies. I suffer the consequences, often. Every decision I make I get screwed over, in some way or another. It’s frustrating, yes, but think I try to think of it this way… I can always pick myself up and keep walking. I might be left with “ouchies” but at least they will heal and eventually, I might learn something.
This feels amazing.
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[ July 30th, 2007 | 9:21pm ] |
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i just finished the book "choke"
really, go out and buy it
it was amazing
now i'm starting "the perks of being a wallflower"
house sitting morgan's was okay
it was boring
but okay.
someone stole my password from myspace
so i had to change it
which is reallllyyyy lame
i leave for up north with missy and meara on the 3rd
and i'm super excited
i get to see amanda and ben
it's been a really long time
dylan hopefully comes home on the 4th
but it might be the 10th
he's finding out tomorrow
my mom gets out of jail on the 20th
i think
i'm not really excited for that
school starts in almost a month
this summer went by so fast
i kind of have a different view on life lately
maybe it's from reading that book
but it's a good outlook
maybe things will get better
i have a new favorite quote
"without access to true chaos
we will never find true peace"
it's from choke
blah
i'm done.
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| ohhhkayyy |
[ July 25th, 2007 | 8:55pm ] |
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Dylan is in Florida
Kacey is in France
& Morgan is in Philidalphia
blehhh.
my phone is shut off
& i need a job soon soon soon
i've been high everyday for the past week
eeeeeek
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[ July 18th, 2007 | 1:42pm ] |
he fucking leaves today
he fucking leaves for a month
the past 3 days i've come home and cried
why is something so amazing being ripped away from me?
is this fair at all?
i will suck it up
and wait for him to come home
i can do this
i can
i can
i can
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[ July 15th, 2007 | 6:42pm ] |
this is so scary to me
not because i think he is fucking me over
-well slightly
but that i will fuck him over
and that isn't what i want
i wont let it happen this time
i swear it's different
i miss things.
i miss people.
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[ July 4th, 2007 | 1:40pm ] |
it's okay
because
i'm okay
:]
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| you're the smell before rain |
[ June 28th, 2007 | 4:32pm ] |
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brand new obsession |
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I can't explain why I feel the way I do towards certain people
towards a lot of people actually
so I heard I’m different
but if it's me wanting to change
and I am comfortable with myself
then this is me being myself
and if you don't like the different me
then please don't be fake to me
I’m comfortable
I'm happy
I’m hopeless
I’m sad
I’m empathetic
I’m complicated
I’m distant
I'm anxious
I'm guilty
I’m indecisive
I’m shaky I’m pathetic I'm cranky
I'm nervous
I'm thankful I'm tired I'm okay
I’m me
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| our hell is a good life |
[ June 13th, 2007 | 4:36am ] |
i'm trying to deal
and trying to cope
i'm trying to be strong
i'm trying not to cry
i'm trying
but it's not good enough
why can't everything just be semi-close to normal?
well, it's almost summer
next year i will be a senior.
i don't feel like it
tim and i have been dating for over 2 months
this is my longest
mannn,
what do i do?
i need to know if i will be okay in my life!
is my destiny picked out already? or do i still have a chance?
its 4:38a.m.
i spent all night studying for finals
looking for dogs
trying to get my mom out of jail
dying my laundry
helping my sister move out
and i cracked
i wish i was stronger.
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[ May 24th, 2007 | 10:22pm ] |
how we waste our prescious time
marching in the picket line
that surround those striking hearts
& the time is never now
& we know who we should love
but we're never certain how
-the time is now
& i know who to love
& i'm learning how
<3
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| you have stolen |
[ May 14th, 2007 | 5:42pm ] |
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stolen-dashboard confessional |
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when i saw this
i cried
and my heart dropped to my stomach
i shouldn't feel this way.
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| are you up for this? |
[ May 10th, 2007 | 10:19pm ] |
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Whats it feel like to be a ghost-taking back sunday |
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things are well
as well as they could be i guess
parents are pathetic
friends are fantastic
boyfriend is breath taking
school is stupid
home is hopeless
:]
i'll be fine.
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| ~!@#$%^ |
[ May 6th, 2007 | 9:52pm ] |
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Jesus Christ- Brand New |
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I'm such a fucking fuck up.
dasflkjfa;skjfaslkj;shit.
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| you have no idea |
[ April 23rd, 2007 | 1:10am ] |
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Sleeping In- Postal Service |
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he makes me so happy
it's ridiculous
almost scary
ohkay... it is scary.
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| CRACK!? |
[ April 16th, 2007 | 9:11pm ] |
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Annie Waits- Ben Folds |
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I-HATE-YOU-SO-FUCKING-MUCH
i really just want you out of my life
you are supposed to be in my life to help me
but of course not
you are just fucking making it worse
REHAB
i can't fucking wait until you fucking leave
it was 8:45 and you told me to fucking go to bed
ARE YOU FUCKING DOING CRACK TOO!??!
what the fuck
on another note
i really like my boyfriend :]
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[ April 8th, 2007 | 5:00pm ] |
lets hope i don't fuck this up.
4-8-07 tk
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| never full |
[ April 4th, 2007 | 11:19pm ] |
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obstacle 2:::interpol |
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a huge part of me is finally complete
<3
but a hole was just dug deeper.
</3
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